instead of eschewing the past
(so much focus on "living in the Now")
ignoring it as illusion
recognizing that past moments linger
both in the body
and in timelines
see that at some level
the past is still happening!
go back to the pain points
& wrap them in a blanket of comforting love
make this a habit
and one day
in a moment of forgetting
you may find yourself embraced and lifted
by a brighter & wiser version
of your Self
(with respect to the spiritual teacher Brian Baruch)
found while going through old journals...
August 22, 2006
I am now ready, willing, and able to persevere with ease and grace in the face of any doubts, either in my head or reflected outside of me by others. I understand that anything in my life I don’t like is a reflection of WHO I WAS and that by changing WHO I AM NOW I will shape and transform my future. I forgive myself for everything and know that this journey has happened this way for a reason. I choose to learn my lesson and move on to the next chapter.
I am now choosing who I want to be and getting aligned with that in each moment with my thoughts, words, and actions as best I can with no regrets.
Saw a big trainload of military tanks parked under my office window today.
I've pulled out an old suitcase full of journals and am going to go through them to see what I can find.
I imagine some will get tossed, but that I'll also find a few useful gems that can be used in other writing projects.
The earliest one is from 2001, around the time I threw out everything I'd written up to that point.
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That said, my spam/troll filter is working great, which is good because insincere comments seem to be epidemic.
Here's a funny one that came through today, it's pretty obvious this was created using a translation program because the word choices are so awkward.
Hi, cowboy! I dislike my hackneyed indoor work and try to spend my weekends outside the city walking and exploring the roundabouts. This time I located a pure lake in the forest. It was so sultry outside but the water was incredibly cold.
I couldn't help swimming. But I had no swimming suit with me, that is why I simply undressed! My wildest friend made several piquant photos - check out my profile to see them. Send me a message for more details!
I'm feeling really at home in Toronto and am playing a lot of music! My band Giant Triangle has its first gig on October 12, and I've been going to a lot of drum circles & jam sessions. I also played for an outdoor yoga class at the Junction Music Festival this weekend. I still have a day job but I'm finding the more I focus on music, the better things go in all aspects of my life. I feel like not depending on music for money allows me to be less stressed & more creative (though I wish I had more time for it!) It's about improving my own musical skills and spending as much time in "the zone" as possible. Good times.