I've just finished transcribing my old stack of journals! I didn't type up everything, just what I felt might be worth sharing.
I'll share the whole document after some formatting/editing work, but here's an excerpt:
January 3, 2006
Travelling and talking, exporing and seeking, I’ve done my share of them all, but somehow it all leads back INSIDE. The outer world, the people we meet all as projections, reflections, refractions of the Love that exists inside.
Really, there’s nowhere to go (though it’s beautiful to explore) because it’s all HERE, NOW. Somehow these ideas resonate but I know my understanding is limited at this juncture in so-called space and time.
The key to me it seems is Presence, being here now, paying attention, bringing the multislacking mind back to the centre, the light (whatever we call it, however it’s experienced) and embracing it all (including our pain and transgressions) as Perfect.
There are no mistakes on the journey.
instead of eschewing the past
(so much focus on "living in the Now")
ignoring it as illusion
recognizing that past moments linger
both in the body
and in timelines
see that at some level
the past is still happening!
go back to the pain points
& wrap them in a blanket of comforting love
make this a habit
and one day
in a moment of forgetting
you may find yourself embraced and lifted
by a brighter & wiser version
of your Self
(with respect to the spiritual teacher Brian Baruch)
found while going through old journals...
August 22, 2006
I am now ready, willing, and able to persevere with ease and grace in the face of any doubts, either in my head or reflected outside of me by others. I understand that anything in my life I don’t like is a reflection of WHO I WAS and that by changing WHO I AM NOW I will shape and transform my future. I forgive myself for everything and know that this journey has happened this way for a reason. I choose to learn my lesson and move on to the next chapter.
I am now choosing who I want to be and getting aligned with that in each moment with my thoughts, words, and actions as best I can with no regrets.
Here are two wonderful bits of propaganda currently circulating on F*cebook....
I realized that I never posted my "Metaphysical Beauty Tips" (something I wrote in 2007) to the blog so here it is:
everything as reflections of self
Love as sovereign
Now moment focus
is enough philosophy for me
Here's today's message from one of my favourite mailng lists, Notes From the Universe by Mike Dooley (which I've subscribed to for years.)
Today it covers a very important (and transformative) concept...
----- Original message -----
From: "The Universe"
Date: Wed, 5 Jan 2011 03:28:40 -0500 (EST)
Subject: TUT... A Note from the Universe
I know it seems that your emotions arise from circumstances, even though it works the other way around. And this is kind of scary because sometimes they literally seem to overrun you.
But I also know that most of the time they don't, which is all the leverage you need.
Just feel good when you can; it'll always be enough.
Can you feel me, now?